All my love. All my life.

"We Weren’t born to follow
Come on and get up off your knees
When life is a bitter pill to swallow
You gotta hold on to what you believe
Believe that the sun will shine tomorrow
And that your saints and sinners bleed
We weren’t born to follow
You gotta stand up for what you believe"
Bon Jovi


Dear SC,

It has been almost 4 months since you came into our lives. It seems like so long ago & just like yesterday all at the same time. You are the greatest joy in my life and I can only hope that you always feel that... From the top of your head to the ends of your toes. There is nothing that you will do in my lifetime to make me love you any less than I do now. But, Sweet cheeks, there are some things I feel I should tell you.

People will let you down. By letting people get close to you, close enough to see what's really in your heart, you take the chance on getting hurt. As much as I want to hold you close and to shelter you from the world, I know that one day someone is going to let you down. It will hurt me just as much as it will hurt you, my sweet boy. You'll find that most friendships do not last forever, and if you get truely lucky you will find one love that will last a lifetime. Those are going to be hard lessons to learn. You may be sad, or angry, or bitter. Those feelings are normal. Allow yourself to feel them for a short time and then decide to move on. It's ok to mourn the loss, but it's also important to not let it consume your life. There are so many amazing things out there to spend your life enjoying. Try not to let the negative things water down the amazing things.

There are good people out there, but they are hard to come by. When you find one, hold on tight and don't let go. Be a good person, and good people will surround you. Be a man of honesty & integrity because in the end, how you have conducted yourself will be what allows you to sleep peacefully at night.

The secret to getting through life with few scars is faith. Faith gives you hope and security. Faith will allow you to make the right decisions. Find faith in a higher power, and allow it to follow you all of your days.

I hope and also fear that you'll learn these lessons. Daddy and I will always be here for you. We are here with open arms. When you feel unsure of the world and scared of all that's around, know that my love surrounds you and your faith will guide you.

All my love. All my life.
Mommy