Do you feel this way too?

Sometimes I feel like I've lost myself. I get caught up in the day-to-day and I forget who I am. I forget who I used to be. I forget about the things I used to enjoy.

Sometimes I feel like I am in over my head. I feel like having 2 small children is overwhelming. I feel like I struggle some days.

Sometimes I need a break. I need 15 minutes to run to Starbucks. But then I realize it will take 20 minutes to get the kids ready to leave and it's almost lunch time/nap time/bath time and it's not possible.

Sometimes when I look into the mirror I see a glimpse of who I used to be and I miss her. But, I am going to get back to "me". The me I lost when I became "Mommy".

Sometimes I miss my Grandpa so much it hurts. I have moments when it hurts to breathe.

Sometimes I wish I knew then what I know now. And then I realize that even if I did know then what I know now, I wouldn't change a thing.

Sometimes I feel like the luckiest person alive. I feel like I've been blessed far more than I deserve. And I feel like I take it for granted.

Sometimes I feel like life is really, really hard.
Sometimes I feel like everything is going to be OK.
Sometimes I feel like I am surrounded by the most amazing people and I am extremely lucky.
Sometimes I am a walking contradiction.

Amazon MOM: Rave!

I have two small children, so it's no secret that I go through A LOT of diapers. I order a box of diapers {Huggies} per child, every 2-3 weeks.

We buy 3-4 boxes of diapers a month. That's a lot of diapers, y'all.

Recently I discovered Amazon Mom. It's a service provided by Amazon.com to give moms a little price break when it comes to frequently used baby items. It's FREE to sign up and offers FREE 2 day shipping on most items. I say "most" because it doesn't cover everything, but it does include a lot of items.

If you sign up for Amazon Mom {save 15%} & also choose the "Subscribe and save" option {save 15%- Just remember to "unsubscribe" when you receive your items} you will save 30%!!

To make this deal even sweeter, you can stack a 20% off diapers on Amazon coupon with the 30% off. You can find these coupons in most parenting magazines. Some of my favorites to browse through: Parenting, Parents, Baby Talk, American Baby.

I often find these magazines FREE at the Doctors office, in waiting rooms, or at the local children's consignment shop.

These savings add up to be about $20/per box diapers... Or $60-$80 a month!! That's a A LOT of money!

Baby Bee {Davis}

Davis.

Our sweet newborn baby.

One day you'll ask me where your name came from. How we chose it. If there's any meaning behind it.

Here is the story I will tell you.

Papa Joe chose it.

During the last few days, hours, minutes of his life I spent as much time at the hospital with Papa Joe as I could. I spent time just sitting next to the hospital bed, praying, and listening to the monitors. In those last days there were times where Papa Joe was completely coherent and carrying on conversation. During one of those moments someone asked him what he thought I should name the baby. David.

David was the name of my uncle who passed away a few years ago. David and Papa Joe were best friends. Brothers (In-law). Fishing buddies. Jokesters. One (two) in a million type of people.

We changed the name "David" to Davis for a couple of reasons. 1} To give you your own name. Your own identity. 2} To make the name slightly more unique.

Davis, as you go through life always remember you have a very special name. You have a name that was chosen with love and that represents two amazing men. Your name is more than just a name, it's a memory. It's a legacy. You are such an amazing little boy and I know that Papa Joe (and David) would be so proud of you.

Davis Joe. Our sweet little blessing. Carry your name with honor.

I haven't been blogging.

I haven't been blogging. Well, that's not entirely true. I have been writing posts, but they will never be published. There are posts I write to share, and posts I write to write. Last summer, I had to say goodbye to my grandfather. It was heartbreaking. It was a struggle to go through such a loss and to also remain healthy because I was pregnant. The past 6 months have been HARD. And, honestly? The posts about raw pain are incredibly difficult to write and are not enjoyable to read. So, those difficult posts have been tucked away for now. Maybe one day I will share them, maybe they will remain private. Only time will tell.

So. I haven't been blogging.

I thought long and hard about the direction I wanted my blog to take. Here's what I've decided: I'm going to return to the blogging world. I'm going to keep writing about our life and our children. I'm going to keep writing letters to Sweet Cheeks and Baby Bee. I'm going to continue telling our story.

Here we go. Blogging. Again.

xoxo